hard to explain why i did it and it seemed to happen when i was at the end of my tether

the stinging pain and actually seeing the blood seeping out made it feel better. it was as if the blood seeping out was taking the problems with it. if that makes sense. i don`t do it now and haven`t for years. don`t know if i grew out of it or whether my life got better or what.

i do know however when people tell self harmers to get a grip it makes me so angry it`s being told to get a grip all the time that sometimes drives people over the edge and that`s when the blade or whatever comes out

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