oh paula, what a weekend i`ve had. went to look at one hotels gardens in daylight. (the place i like) rob thought they were ok. then went to look at another hotel and there is no way we can afford it, but he likes it. then he can`t see the problem of disabled access (we`ve 2 guests in wheelchairs) i`m not having guests of mine going outside if it`s raining just so they can get from room to room.

anyway another arguement last night and another massive cry from me.he can`t see just how much it`s going to cost. without going to the most expensive venue on the list.

had another row with mum this morning, who has this thing against getting married early. what is so wrong with trying to make MY day as long as possible. i`m getting to the point were i`ve decided to please me and rob and not try to please everyone else and if she mentions church again i will go abroad and get married on a beach. i am really beginning to resent her. i know i shouldn`t but who exactly is this day about.

anyway i`m whinging and i hate it. i hate the fact that we`ve not got anywhere booked yet. and i`m feeling really anxious about it. we`re not going to get the date we want if we don`t hurry.

looks like you are really organised. i`m just hoping that i`ll be that organised

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