And the attempt at yesterday's NC was TERRIBLE......... I did ok most of the day, went to the gym, saw a movie. But on my ride home, I started going nuts! I was home for about 1.5 hours just bawling my eyes out, worst episode yet, I just wanted to call her and let her know what she is doing to me. I didn't call but started driving to her house (1.5 hours away) for two reasons:
1. Wanted to shock her and scare her, make her realize how bad I really am doing
2. Maybe catch her sleeping with her new guy and make them feel like shit
3. Tell her to her face that I never want to see her or talk to her again, and take back by promise ring, that she still wears and treasures.