Thanks for your concern.

Yes a lot has happened since but I won't go too much into it.

I basically tried to leave things as he was so confused. He always initated contact so I always replied when he did. He'd send texts saying how he has missed talking to me. And texts on fridays asking if I was where he'd be going, because he 'wouldnt want to ruin my night'. And texts from him when he'd play his gigs (these were the first ones where I wouldn't have been there and he'd literally tell me everything that was going on.)

After this he asked to meet up for a drink. We did and he told me that he still wanted to see me but that maybe we should take things slow. I agreed but still things remained the same, although that night I decided to leave early even though he invited me for drinks with his workmates and then to see hs friends band. I don't know if this was why thngs remained the same, but he did tell me he left early that night too.

We remained in contact since then and met up again. At first things were awkward but we got back to how things were and it was a fun night. I stayed at his that night and then had dinner with his mum and hung out with his brother the next day.

Then I didnt hear from him for a week, (except the 'I had a great night' text), then on the friday he text asking if I was out in town and did I want to meet him and go to a comedy club he was at with his workmates. I said I was already out and then the next thng he turns up on his own.

We spoke outside for ages about everything and I told him that I hated how things were, everything being up in the air, and how he can't just contact me on a friday cos that makes me feel used and like he only wants one thing. He said I know its not like that really and that he felt like he was pestering me cos he always iniated contact to which I replied that he was the one who wanted to take things slow so I didnt want to over do it with texts.

He told me he had txt his ex 2 days earlier and he got no reply. He said he didnt plan to do it but hated feeling so confused. He said he needed to know why she ended things and thought if he could speak to her that it would help him sort himself out. But he got no reply. He said that he still wanted to see me but I told him I didnt want to be second best or just the rebound girl and he said I was never that and that it wouldn't be this hard and he wouldnt be so confused if that was all I ever was.

I got upset and told him that him texting her says a lot and that I could deal with it all before because us taking things slow was what i thought as him wanting to move on and that he needs to figure out what he wants and not wait on someone else to decide for him. I told him that we shouldnt see each other anymore and that if he does want to see me when he's sorted things out then he knows where I am.

He asked if I wanted him to go and I sad yes. He did. About half an hour later, I decided to go home as I was upset. I went to get my coat and he was stood on his own against the wall. He didnt see me at first. I walkd straight past him. But then he grabs me and hugs me tightly saying sorry and that he knew he should go cos I wanted him to but that he didnt want to leave things like this.

We left together and walked around town, surprisingly not taking about 'the issue'. It was great. Then he stayed at mine. He had dinner at mine the nxt day and left. Soon after he left he text saying how last night was amazing and if i wanted to see hm again then let him know and if I didnt he understands. Then within 10 mins he texts again saying that he would like to see me again and then commented on hs bad hair.

I since told him again that I think he needs to sort everything out on his own and that if he then decided that he wants to meet up with me again then maybe we can. That I don't want to be second best and he needs to decide once and for all and stick to it. He replied saying he understands and that he is sorry.

I haven't spoken to him since and that was a few weeks ago, its been so difficult. I think its harder becuase we didnt end on bad terms as such. I still have this feeling that evrything will work out and we'll try again and I can't seem to shake it.
As childish as it seems, I think part of that is because he has still kept up pics of us on his fb. Also my friends seem to think we will eventually too.

Up until now, me worrying about his ex wanting him back was never an issue becuase I always had the impression from what he had told me that she didnt. But I didnt want to say that to him cos its not nice to hear and I'd sound bitter. I guess its a case of him figuring things out for himself. I always knew snce he admitted it that it was a case of him needing closure and needing time to get over her. Though this was hard to accept when he seemed to be making such an effort with me still.

Im not going to sit here and say that he is 'the one' cos we were only togehter for 7 months and I'm trying to be realistic but its frustrating becuase I believed that we would have been together for a good while, longer; who knows? and that do believe that if it wasnt for the circumstances we'd have worked out. I guess it was bad timing and I'm still trying to get over that. This was our only issue, there were never any other problems, he said so too. It was the best relationship I've ever been in despite 'the issue'.

Sorry for the long essay, I tried not to write this much, thank you for your concern.
I'dbe grateful for any replies. Do you think I've done the right thing? Any tips for what i should do now? Anything I should have done?
thanks
xxx