The thing that kind of gets me, is that just like about a week ago...I was in my (Former) high school...because my cousin is a junior in the school that I graduated from, so I had to go in and pick her up...and she was getting help from a teacher so I was in the front office waiting and..he came in the front doors from the parking lot and was like..Ohh Hi...what are you doing here and I told him I was picking up my cousin and he was like ohh..and then he walked into the office and when he came out, he was like " oh Nicki...I have to stay away from you..." or something like that..I couldn't really make out what he said..but I was like..hmmm...thats wierd. Its like...he throws so many mixed signals....I just dont ever know if Iam reading him right.

People say, its just like...maybe he is just getting tierd of me not being receptive to his advances..there like...he has done lots of things to show you he cares and you have not done anything in return really. There like..maybe you two should just sit down and talk. They were like..maybe he is just afraid to talk to you about " you two being together" , because of how I may react or something like that.

But then the whole test thing happened and I sent him the E-mail and he responded, with what I would consider...some personal stuff, in the E-Mail. I mean, he didnt sound like he was no longer interested or anything. So I feel like part of me is abit thrown off...but the other part says, I have these feelings for him for a reason...so I dont want to live life with all the "What if's". To be honest, I have really never had someone have this effect on me before.

Well..people have told me... He will not come out directly with his feelings, especially since I haven't given him any kind of sign. As a teacher he loves his work and wouldn't want to do anything he might think would jeopardize it. To be honest..I just kept thinking maybe I am doing something wrong; thats why he was never making a move..or like sometimes he would like avoid me...but then other times..he would act completely normal..so I just figured..jeez...talk about mixed signals.

So really..its like, the ball has been in my court for awhile and I just didn't realize it. =/ I guess..if I had just given a "sign" in return to some of his advances, maybe he would be more expressive now. So, I guess if I want anything to happen...I am going to have to be the one initiate conversation about it.

The next time I see him, I guess...I am just gonna tell him..we have to talk. The kinda "scary" thing, really...I have never had someone have this effect on me before...and that really is why I just wanted to see what others thought about all of this. Am I just reading him wrong, or what.