i think that could help people :-)

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what name shall we have ?
something easy to type please.

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a shoulder to cry on?
a friend in need?
:lol:

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TEST POST.

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Ok, I will start this one off. Im hiding noit from you lovely peeps, but I don’t want a friwend or family member to spot this, without me habving told them about my ‘stuff’ before.

So. Where to start. Well, I suffer from depression on and off. Have done for nearly 10 years. My goodness, that’s scarey! :shock: I think the thing that started it all off was my dad getting married again. My second stepmother. Before he was married to another lady, and had a kid. My brother. She also already had a kid. My step sister. Since their marriage went down the pan, we moved across the country, and ii miss my brother and sister desperately. I think I sort of resented the fact that my dad was about to screw our lives up again.

I am married, but I have very little faith in marriages lasting. My aunt and uncle who were always together recently separated. That sort of blew any faith I had in it right out of the water. I guess im trying to prove to myself that marriage does work.

Sorry this is a total ramble. Im just typing things as they come to me, so polease bear with me. :roll:

So anyway, I think that’s where it all started. I mean im not saying life was rosey before that. My stepmum number 1 used to hit me. Not as in abuse, but if I put my foot a speck out of line she would hit me for doing it. I don’t think my dad knew, and I didn’t tell him cos I thought at the time he did know. Then there is my family tree which is impossible to write down. I have 5 step siblings, and 4 half siblings. My dad was adopted, as was my aunty. Its soo confusing!!

But I think my dads marriage to his latest wife set me off. I put it down to teenage blues at first, but it has never gone really. I have never been to the docs about it, as I have seen a bad effect that the antidepression pills can have.

So here I am. Most days all is well. But some days I just don’t want to get up. Hmmmm. My hubby doesn’t seem to understand it, and I try and hide it from my little boy. Hes too little to be involved in my mysery.

On the plus though, im ok today. just thought I would start this bit off with my story

Thanks for creating this forum, I think it will be a great help to many people. I'm a long term sufferer of depression and agoraphobia and currently going through a pretty tough time with it. I'm struggling to get through each day at the moment, spending most of it browsing forums as a distraction, so it's a huge relief to know there's somewhere I can talk to people who understand. Thankyou

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I think one of the hardest things is if you have a partner or friend who has never suffered they cannot get there head around it or understand.

the opinion of non sufferers seems to be "just pull yourself together,as if you can snap out of it like turning a lightbulb on and off.
thats were i hope this forum can help by talking to fellow sufferers,me included.MG

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yeh, we all need a sounding board i suppose every now ant then.

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my mum has severe panic attacks and feels that she will really die!!! and she is now bordering on agoraphobia since my step dad died suddenly 18 months ago. I think sometimes it is as hard on families as it is on the sufferer themselves, obviously i will never be able to understand what my mum goes through day to day [she can go to the newsagents and that is all] and i have been guilty of yelling at her to pull herself together as sometimes i just want a 'real' mum and not one that i have to be the adult for and the strong one [thats a story though for other times] but i think for me and my sister is it very hard to live in a family that others cannot understand, why my mum cant have my kids for an afternoon so i can go out?? its no use trying to explain sometimes :? she has other problems too which really just add to the panic attacks..or even cause them???? who knows?