Depression is an awful thing, and until you have experienced it you dont understand it. I lost my DH 10 years ago and since then I have had some really bad bouts of it, Ive dealt with loads of problems since being on my own but now I just havent got any fight in me.

I have a bully for a neighbour and I just can't take her on. I love my little home but this week I have put it up for sale because I can't ever see myself coping in this enviroment, she upset me so much that I was really going to commit suicide it was the easy way out. I have been on tablets for the depression and had councilling but at the end of the day tablets do not cure, they just hide the symptoms...I could go on for ever about the way I feel at times but I dont want to bore you.

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supergran you wont 'bore' anybody if you need to talk , just to get things out of your system, have a good rant, whatever, go ahead no-one will mind, thats what this section is for

exactly and sometimes its really so much easier to 'talk' to ppl that arent involved !! and i know ppl have said before putting it down on paper helps because you can also 'see' what you have 'said' ! so go ahead we are all listening

supergran you said you have put your house on the market :shock:

now the experts would say you should not run away but face your demons.
BUT as a fellow sufferer i know that sometimes you have to give in and move on.

you managed to ring the estate agents,that is a very possitive step,you are not ready to give in yet.
also you have loads and loads of members on this forum rooting for you now,alone ? rubbish,lets kick ass and get this sorted.

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like others have said, having a bit of a moan/rant etc is what this bits for, and we are all here for each other.

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as others have said we are all here for one another we will not judge, just give advice. Other people will suffer the same as you but haven't got the confidence to share it with anyone hence the user name friend in need.

I myself have been feeling really down recently having a short temper and snapping at ppl, i put up a front to hide behind. I lack self confidence find it hard to make new friends. Probs down to the fact that my last good friends used me. I find it hard to trust ppl. Thanx to been on here though i have found ppl who i can talk to and i want to thank them for their time, they will know who they are I start work on Monday and will use that as a spring board to get back on top of things. I know its hard and somethimes life can get you down. It is good that you have ppl who know where you are coming from and can support you in the right way.

thanx for listening

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well done lee

awww lee *MASSIVE HUGS*

thnx pinky and nita

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Well done Lee. I hope in your new job you meet some friends. There are a lot of nice people out there. Dont think that everybody is out to use you.

Ive had trouble making friends in the past, my life long friend (although I hadnt seen her for a couple of years - we phoned each other) died 18 months ago.

I know I give the wrong impression of myself , i think people think im a misery sometimes but im not - i like a good laugh but I dont feel confident with a lot of people around me, so id rather walk away.

Im not short tempered like you Lee but im very intolerent (even with my own children). I think thats because my mum was like that - she was always in a bad mood - still is and my dad used to sit there with a sad face.

Now im waffling and got tears in my eyes. Like PL said ive typed it and im reading it back to myself.

Ive got a super friend now who I think understands me. She knows whos she is.

So keep trying Lee, there is a lot of good out there and I hope you can find it.

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