Well, im 22 yrs old. When I was 6 yrs old, I had one of my testicles removed because of some health complications. As I aged, I was always curious about men, because they looked different down there. I was young and forgot that I had two before discovering this difference. Im overweight too.Now im really attracted to men, I necessarily think that im gay though because I dont like the thought of sex with men, i just like to look at them, almost as if I dont feel like i fit in and I just want to look like a nice, fit, normal "down there" male. Im so insecure about it that I feel like its messing with my hormones/attractions and i cant explain it, im very confused. I also dont have a very high voice, pueberty came on late and i didnt get alot of hair, I wonder if I dont product enough testoterone because im not very manly. I hate this so much, does anyone have any ideas... the doctors around here are quaks and im not going to one for it cause i dont have insurance. Im really confused.

Puberty probably came on late cos you're chunkyIf you like looking at men then you like looking at men, get over it.You dont say you like looking at girls.... You either see a doctor, or you glue some artificial hair to your nether regions, or you just ACCEPT YOURSELF!

Probably it has to do with your testicle surgery that you had delayed puberty. However from what I have read, men with one testicles can still function normally and have children. You have a very low self-esteem and it has worsen with your being overweight. Try talking to a school counselor or a good friend. In this way, you can unload that burden in you. Better yet, loose those extra weight and get a lean and mean body. It will surely bring back your self-esteem. Chin up and walk tall, you are beautiful as Christina Aguilera would say. Do not let it put you down.

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if everyone you asked was totally honest they would say they have all had a sneaky look...its nature,that doesnt make you gay just curious.so keep looking, if thats what you like to do.my bruv in law had same op as you and he went on to father 3 boys,he sometimes sys he feels inadequate as result of operation.dont feel that way.just be you.