Please please please help! im so scared of loosing him!
okay omg where do i start. ive been going out with my boyfriend for a year and almost 2 months already. its been a rocky road (almost loosing him twice, etc) well recently i almost lost him again. he says ive become too much of a wisea$$ and i go too far. also in the beginning of our relationship i went to one of his friends house (hes a guy and i went with a girlfriend of mine, i also did it more then one time) and we hung out. one of the times i was going to invite my bf over after he got done out of work but then (lets call him bob) Bob said no hes not aloud to have more people over. i got upset. then another time i was over (same people as before) they took my phone and wouldnt answer my boyfriends calls. anywho another time we all went to my boyfriends house (bob, me, my girlfriend, another one of my boyfriends friends and of course my boyfriend) i was kidding around and hid in the woods, bob followed me. so we walked around just talking and then my girlfriend shows up cuz (i found out after the fact) my boyfriend and his friend sent her to see what we were doing i guess. i DID NOT cheat on my boyfriend ever. long story short we walked in the woods for over an hour all 3 of us and just talked. i wasnt thinking and it was a stupid stupid move. it still hurts my boyfriend to this day and he says he will never forget what i did. ive appologized over and over again. i told my boyfriend that i have never ever cheated on him and he said he thinks i have but i told him i never ever have, ever. a couple of days ago when we hung out i think he got super upset that i was talking to his sister (he doesnt like her too much) i think that he thinks i ignored him for her (which i didnt) i would talk to him but he wouldnt really talk back, so his sister started talking to me so i talked back. anywho when we got home later he was super upset with me. i felt so bad, look what i caused, again! i wanted him to be happy but it didnt work i only made matters worse. i started to cry. he hugged and kissed me and said "after everything youve done i still loved you" which made me cry even harder because i never ever would want to hurt him. hes my life, my everything. he says ive always been like this and i will never change. he says he doesnt trust me and i want to gain my trust with him and show him i do care. this could mean everything between loosing the love of my life or saving or relationship. please help guys!
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